This video is incisive and deeply persuasive—I kept thinking, “Why, yes, that’s true.”
«WHEN THE SOUL IS TIRED
There is a kind of exhaustion sleep cannot touch.
You can rest your body and still wake up inwardly crowded. Not broken enough to stop functioning. Just too scattered to pray, too numb to feel deeply, too full of noise to notice God.
That is one of the quiet tragedies of our age. Not always unbelief, but overstimulation. A soul fed with fragments, urgency, comparison, and constant distraction until silence itself begins to feel threatening.
Orthodoxy has always known that attention is not neutral. What you repeatedly give your mind to begins to shape what you love. And what you love begins to shape who you become.
This is why prayer matters so much. Not as one more task, but as return. The soul does not heal by staying busy enough to avoid itself. It heals by turning back to Christ again and again, even tired, even dry, even restless.
Sometimes the soul is not asking for escape.
It is asking for reordering.»
THIS! you have described EXACTLY what I have been going through for awhile. I don’t even know how to put into words how comforting this video was for me. I thought I was have a mental breakdown or something was bad wrong with me. I am exhausted but sleep isn’t helping. It is a different kind of exhausted. The other day I said “God I am so very tired, I just can’t anymore”. I didn’t know what the “can’t” is until this video. Part of my exhaustion is the spiritual journey I have been on since lockdown, where my Catholic faith came crumbling down. I found Orthodoxy, ( I don’t have a church near me), and at the first encounter I went to be and before I fell asleep I said “I found you”. I woke up the next day and it has been a torment of a storm trying to reconcile what I grew up being taught in the faith and the church and Orthodoxy. I could go on, but it would be a book. Thank you for this video. I will re watch it again. God Bless.
God bless you, dear one! I pray that God will come and comfort you, in your exhaustion. That he will show you the growing seeds of new life. Feel free to contact me at FMG@FredericaMG.com.